Being a sufferer of Depression, I know what it feels like when you are depressed. I won't say being depressed is any kind of Mental disease. Being a human, sometimes we do get depressed. It is a part and parcel of our life. The main thing to know is how to deal with it.
Yes it is true when you are depressed you think of doing certain things which you should never do. To be precise when we are in real depression we try to kill or harm ourselves. That is wrong. Committing suicide or depending on Alcohols is not the real solution. The solution lay with us, with our inner soul. When in depression, all we need is peace. Detaching ourselves from the mean selfish world do help us up to some extent. So let me tell you something that I did when I was really depressed.
The mental trauma that we go through can never be understood by others. So expecting that someone will come and handle your pressure is worthless. A few months before I was in serious depression. I didn't like to do anything. I was praying for my own death, even I tried for it but failed. To kill my depression I went to bars. Yes Alcohols did relax me but only for the time being. I needed a permanent solution to my problem. Even putting scars on my body didn't help.
One night when I was on a casual chat with a friend of mine on Facebook, I told her the things that I was going through. She gave me a motivational speech. Wish I could write what she told me but even writing a Book on her wouldn't be enough. May be on another post of mine, I might write what she told, not today.
The next morning was different. I had a new reason to live. Yes, I wanted to live. I wanted to fulfill my dreams. No matter how difficult it would be but I wanted to do the things which I always wanted to do. The society, even my own peoples treated me as a failure. I wanted to prove them wrong. I wanted to achieve something. Dying before living your life is foolish. God has given us a life to enjoy and live, not to die.
It was bit difficult at the early stages. Every time I tried to take a step, I fell. But this time I didn't stop. There was only one thing on my mind. I wanted to prove others wrong. I wanted to prove myself. I wanted to live my dreams. No matter how many times I failed, I tried to take a step forward. As the time passed, Depression was replaced by stubbornness. There was a fire inside me which took me forward. It won't be a lie if I say when I got engaged fulfilling my dreams, there was no time left to get depressed.
I'm not depressed anymore. I'm living a life which I always wanted to. I would have died and the society would have laughed on my cowardliness. I didn't let them laugh, it is me who is laughing at the peoples who have once said me, "You are good for nothing".
Thanks to all those so called well wishers. You guys encouraged me more. Everytime you said I will fail, I became stronger.
Lastly, A special thanks to Miss. Chandni for always being there with me, during my ups and downs. Without you this journey would have never been possible. You are a true friend. Thank you for being the motivator of my life.
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